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上白沢慧音の随想
　Kamishirasawa Keine no Zuisou
　Kamishirasawa Keine’s Stream of Consciousness
プレインエイジア｜東方永夜抄
エクステンドアッシュ～蓬莱人｜東方永夜抄
懐かしき東方の血～Old World｜東方永夜抄
Vocal = fi-fy
Arrange = fanfan.
Lyrics = 黒岩サトシ
Circle = Diverse System
Album = thE 2
Event = Reitaisai 8

今を見つめ続けて
気付いたら取り残されて
何をすればいいのかさえもわからなくて
未来は闇の中に
過去は記憶の中ぼやけ
答えは見つからず独りで立ち尽くす

ima wo mitsumetudzukete
kidzuitara torinokosarete
nani wo sureba ii no ka sae mo wakaranakute
mirai wa yami no naka ni
kako wa kioku no naka boyake
kotae wa mitsukarazu hitoride tachitsukusu

Focusing on the present,
Before I knew it I was left behind
Not knowing what I should do
The future shrouded in darkness
The past blurred in my memories
I cannot find an answer, standing here alone

いつになれば掴めるの？
諦めてた未来を
今のままじゃだめだってわかってるよ
でも確かなものなんて
この手の中何一つない
間違うこと怖いから動き出せない

itsu ni nareba tsukameru no?
akirameteta mirai wo
ima no mama ja dame datte wakatteru yo
demo tashikana mono nante
kono te no naka nani hitotsu nai
machigau koto kowai kara ugokidasenai

When will I be able to grasp hold of
The future I’d given up on?
I know that things can’t stay the way they are now
But still there’s nothing I have
I can say that I’m sure of, and
Afraid of making mistakes I cannot move forward

「あの時こうしていればきっと…」
まだ未練だけが零れてゆくから

“ano toki koushiteireba kitto…”
mada miren’ dake ga koboreteyuku kara

“If I had only done that back then…”
All I have are these overflowing regrets

夜空の月を見上げ
思い出す苦い記憶を
書き換えられたなら
幸せになれるかな
躊躇う想いにきっと
間違いはないはずだから
過ちも抱えて歩くよ　この先も

yozora no tsuki wo miage
omoidasu nigai kioku wo
kakikaerareta nara
shiawase ni nareru kana
tamerau omoi ni kitto
machigai wa nai hazu dakara
ayamachi mo kakaete aruku yo kono saki mo

Looking up at the moon in the night sky
I remember all of these bitter memories
And wonder, if I were able to
Rewrite them, would I be happy then?
At least I am sure that these
Hesitant emotions I hold are not a mistake
So I can bear my others and keep walking forward

嬉しいこと辛いこと
それは全部差し引きゼロで
楽をすればほら直ぐに後がなくなる

ureshii koto tsurai koto
sore wa zen’bu sashihiki zero de
raku wo sureba hora sugu ni ato ga naku naru

There are times that are happy, times that are sad
But because all of those things balance out to zero
If you run from the hard times, you’ll fall past a point of no return

ありのまま全て受け入れて
進んでゆけるよ
私が消え去るまで

ari no mama subete ukeirete
susun’de yukeru yo
watashi ga kiesaru made

So I will continue to walk forward
Taking in everything just as it is
Until I, myself disappear

明けないこの夜さえ
過ぎ去る時に流されて
薄れてゆくのかな
記憶の片隅から
戻らぬ過去を忘れ
前に進めばぶつかって
同じこと繰り返しながら生きてゆく

akenai kono yoru sae
sugisaru toki ni nagasarete
usurete yuku no kana
kioku no katasumi kara
modoranu kako wo wasure mae ni susumeba butsukatte
onaji koto kurikaeshinagara ikiteyuku

Even during this imperishable night
As I am swept away by time flowing on
I wonder if I too will fade away
As we live by forgetting the memories
Of the past we cannot return to, running into walls
As we move on, ever repeating the same things

どれだけつまづいても
どれだけ涙流しても
終わらない傷みを
否定して陽は昇る
それなら幸せかな
消えない思い出集めて
見えない明日へと送ろう　輝きを

doredake tsumadzuitemo
doredake namida nagashitemo
owaranai itami wo
hitei shite hi wa noboru
sore nara shiawase kana
kienai omoide atsumete
mienai ashita e to okurou kagayaki wo

No matter how many times I fall
No matter how many times I cry
I will deny my unending pain
So that the sun will rise
If I do will I be happy?
Gathering memories that will not disappear
Sending their brilliance toward a tomorrow I cannot see…

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